Indecisive Me!

Hello, Hello! I just came back from work! Lets just say... I finally realized how work can be really tiring and why some people would hate it. Like how today I finally experienced a "busy" day for my job. When I first started until now I have never felt this tired before. But I believe that yesterday me sleeping late have something to do with it.... Anyways, I actually still like being a server or waitress for my job. Even though it is tiring I feel that it is a good tiring feeling and it makes me feel that I am stronger than before. I mean you know the song "what doesn't kill you make you stronger!!~~ " I finally understand that meaning! YAY!!!!! So, all I wanna say to the people out there is to THINK MORE POSITIVELY!! I mean before when I had no job I was all like I will never work I will just win the lottery when I turn 18 and just live with that fortune, since all I hear complains everywhere like from my friends, family and even strangers how hard work is and how they hate it. I mean it isn't that bad. HONESTLY! I know what you guys are probably thinking that: you are just too optimistic or your job is not even that hard.. blah blah blah. Yeah, I know I might be more fortunate than others but it is still considered a job! and I am just lucky!~ ( since I will still win that lottery soon!). Alright, lets stop talking about jobs since it may give some of you stress. Anyways, for the past few days I have been deciding whether I should go volunteer or not for a firework festival. I mean, I have been quite busy with you know what and I was thinking shall I do volunteer work? since it seemed interesting and all and I have never ever volunteered before and I have never been helpful to the community at all...well not that I can think of. I mean even, little kids nowadays have at least volunteered once! For my whole life I have NEVER not even ONCE. I think it is about time I do something good for once or I may just go to hell... D: So, I have decided I will go, even though it may be a hassle for me I will do something good for the community for ONCE!!? YEAH!! GOO MEEE!!!~ So,  you all who have read this and is bored for summer go VOLUNTEER!! Wow.. I wish someone told me to do that in those times when I was bored at home.... Well, at least I told you all!! So, do not be like me in the past being bored at home and just go VOLUNTEER!!

--J

LIFE!

How are you all? Having fun in summer vacation? Unless you have summer school then.. SUCKS FOR YOU!~ Muhahha... It is so weird I only post stuff in summer.. maybe because I started all this in summer and that is the only time I am free from school and it is the time of year when I get bored. Well... unless I go on vacation which I usually do every year for a week or so... (I know it is such a short time but can't blame my parents always being so busy...). Well .. I will try my best to post monthly.. Just that I guess I have nothing interesting going on... ugh, I know I am so pessimistic! BUT I will try updating more about me, myself and I!~ even if its boring or if no one cares.. I will just do it as a hobby and so I will have stuff to do! :D MAN.. I am BRIGHT! Anyways... this summer is quite different from my past like hanging out with friends, going on vacation for a week or two or just bored, staying at home and watching shows and surfing the internet. However, this summer has totally CHANGED for me! It even feels as if even I have changed.. which I really hate.. because then it means I am getting old .... :O  I mean this summer I have no time hanging with my hommys or even with my family... which I usually almost always have the time before. The thing is not only am I changing but many people around me too... like how ALL my friends have no time to hang because of work and their boys.. but as for me... well.. I finally decided and took action in getting a job since I am usually bored with so less things to do....so now I have no time but work, work and more work. I guess working is a new experience for me because before I thought working was tiring and repetitive and no point but to earn money (no point for me since I use to just mooch off my parents actually I still do.. HAHA)... BUT NOW I found work is actually quite fun because I get to meet new people everyday from my job as a waitress and I learn ALOT that I never new about life! Also I get paid...HAHAHA (that is the best part...). So now I am quite busy and no time for anything anymore. Honestly, I should have listened to my mother before since she kept nagging me to get a job if I am bored and how it is good for me in the "future". MAN... I guess the saying is true (at really tiny bits of times) what mothers say is always right. But what really motivated me in getting a career is that I didn't want to keep mooching off my parents anymore(could be due to puberty or getting old. D:) and that I felt that my lil bro became a big bro(since he got a job before me and was being all cocky about it)... which I did not like because I am the BIGGER one, I meant I came out first.. and I did not mean "BIGGER" in the FAT way! Also what has been pushing me in taking action on getting a job is really because my "mother" bribing me saying if I get a job she would finally let me keep a dog at home!~ Since being a dog lover as I am and me being in the year of a dog(which I believe have something to do with it)... I got all fired up and just took action! Truthfully, my parents gave me two chances in my whole life already in owning a dog.. and lets just say I was irresponsible for both of the dogs and they decided to give them away. D: Obviously, it was because I was young and thoughtless(stupid) that time and so they never gave me a third chance even when I tried begging, persuading and even rebelling....well lets just keep this short and leave that story for next time.. and so since my mom kept nagging me in getting a job for more experience I decided to make a deal with her that if I do get one she will allow me to have a dog a home! and she agreed that only if I give her half of what I make so I agreed even though it is such a bad deal but I mean its the only way I could have one or the other way is to move out which is stupid cause then I would have to support myself and I cannot even cook so which makes it impossible (for me). Well.. at least this shows her how dedicated and how bad I want one and hopefully I will get one soon...WHICH I WILL!!~

-- J