Indecisive Me!

Hello, Hello! I just came back from work! Lets just say... I finally realized how work can be really tiring and why some people would hate it. Like how today I finally experienced a "busy" day for my job. When I first started until now I have never felt this tired before. But I believe that yesterday me sleeping late have something to do with it.... Anyways, I actually still like being a server or waitress for my job. Even though it is tiring I feel that it is a good tiring feeling and it makes me feel that I am stronger than before. I mean you know the song "what doesn't kill you make you stronger!!~~ " I finally understand that meaning! YAY!!!!! So, all I wanna say to the people out there is to THINK MORE POSITIVELY!! I mean before when I had no job I was all like I will never work I will just win the lottery when I turn 18 and just live with that fortune, since all I hear complains everywhere like from my friends, family and even strangers how hard work is and how they hate it. I mean it isn't that bad. HONESTLY! I know what you guys are probably thinking that: you are just too optimistic or your job is not even that hard.. blah blah blah. Yeah, I know I might be more fortunate than others but it is still considered a job! and I am just lucky!~ ( since I will still win that lottery soon!). Alright, lets stop talking about jobs since it may give some of you stress. Anyways, for the past few days I have been deciding whether I should go volunteer or not for a firework festival. I mean, I have been quite busy with you know what and I was thinking shall I do volunteer work? since it seemed interesting and all and I have never ever volunteered before and I have never been helpful to the community at all...well not that I can think of. I mean even, little kids nowadays have at least volunteered once! For my whole life I have NEVER not even ONCE. I think it is about time I do something good for once or I may just go to hell... D: So, I have decided I will go, even though it may be a hassle for me I will do something good for the community for ONCE!!? YEAH!! GOO MEEE!!!~ So,  you all who have read this and is bored for summer go VOLUNTEER!! Wow.. I wish someone told me to do that in those times when I was bored at home.... Well, at least I told you all!! So, do not be like me in the past being bored at home and just go VOLUNTEER!!

--J

LIFE!

How are you all? Having fun in summer vacation? Unless you have summer school then.. SUCKS FOR YOU!~ Muhahha... It is so weird I only post stuff in summer.. maybe because I started all this in summer and that is the only time I am free from school and it is the time of year when I get bored. Well... unless I go on vacation which I usually do every year for a week or so... (I know it is such a short time but can't blame my parents always being so busy...). Well .. I will try my best to post monthly.. Just that I guess I have nothing interesting going on... ugh, I know I am so pessimistic! BUT I will try updating more about me, myself and I!~ even if its boring or if no one cares.. I will just do it as a hobby and so I will have stuff to do! :D MAN.. I am BRIGHT! Anyways... this summer is quite different from my past like hanging out with friends, going on vacation for a week or two or just bored, staying at home and watching shows and surfing the internet. However, this summer has totally CHANGED for me! It even feels as if even I have changed.. which I really hate.. because then it means I am getting old .... :O  I mean this summer I have no time hanging with my hommys or even with my family... which I usually almost always have the time before. The thing is not only am I changing but many people around me too... like how ALL my friends have no time to hang because of work and their boys.. but as for me... well.. I finally decided and took action in getting a job since I am usually bored with so less things to do....so now I have no time but work, work and more work. I guess working is a new experience for me because before I thought working was tiring and repetitive and no point but to earn money (no point for me since I use to just mooch off my parents actually I still do.. HAHA)... BUT NOW I found work is actually quite fun because I get to meet new people everyday from my job as a waitress and I learn ALOT that I never new about life! Also I get paid...HAHAHA (that is the best part...). So now I am quite busy and no time for anything anymore. Honestly, I should have listened to my mother before since she kept nagging me to get a job if I am bored and how it is good for me in the "future". MAN... I guess the saying is true (at really tiny bits of times) what mothers say is always right. But what really motivated me in getting a career is that I didn't want to keep mooching off my parents anymore(could be due to puberty or getting old. D:) and that I felt that my lil bro became a big bro(since he got a job before me and was being all cocky about it)... which I did not like because I am the BIGGER one, I meant I came out first.. and I did not mean "BIGGER" in the FAT way! Also what has been pushing me in taking action on getting a job is really because my "mother" bribing me saying if I get a job she would finally let me keep a dog at home!~ Since being a dog lover as I am and me being in the year of a dog(which I believe have something to do with it)... I got all fired up and just took action! Truthfully, my parents gave me two chances in my whole life already in owning a dog.. and lets just say I was irresponsible for both of the dogs and they decided to give them away. D: Obviously, it was because I was young and thoughtless(stupid) that time and so they never gave me a third chance even when I tried begging, persuading and even rebelling....well lets just keep this short and leave that story for next time.. and so since my mom kept nagging me in getting a job for more experience I decided to make a deal with her that if I do get one she will allow me to have a dog a home! and she agreed that only if I give her half of what I make so I agreed even though it is such a bad deal but I mean its the only way I could have one or the other way is to move out which is stupid cause then I would have to support myself and I cannot even cook so which makes it impossible (for me). Well.. at least this shows her how dedicated and how bad I want one and hopefully I will get one soon...WHICH I WILL!!~

-- J

Unlucky?

Heyy guys it's Kii(:

It's been awhile since we've posted, but here it is.

Don't you ever feel like nothing's going your way? Like whatever happens just turns out to be bad? Well it happens to me, not alot but it does. I consider myself a fairly fortunate person, so this happening kinda just shocked me.
At first it seemed decent, but then it got worse. Just when I thought I hit rock bottom, every possible problem started to arise. People can rarely ever be trusted. Based on my experience. They seem so nice and good, then they back stab you without even the slightest of a hint. From there it only goes down, a broken relationship and mistrust.
Why do people do this? Do they not have a moral compass to guide them? How skewed can someone's judgement be that all they think of is themselves? I know that I'm being a little selfish atm, but u can't blame me right?
I believe that people should act upon what they believe is good, and not just the opinions others around them. It's better to have no one on your side than to blindly follow others. I think that being called a sheep is one of the worst things that is used to describe someone's personality. Sure, leaders have to have followers... but to what extent? People should just do good b/c they want to, not b/c they have to. Do a good deed when no one's watching, rather than do a good deed because someone's watching.

So because of these people and various other circumstances, we became beggars. Beggars that can't be choosers. Whats done is done, and there isn't any going back.

I am not in the position to dictate what course of action would be righteous or not,(hence the beggars cant be choosers)  but if everybody just stopped and thought of other people once in a while, maybe things like this would not be happening.
>:c